Conchita Cintron: Rejoneadora
Conchita! the cry, echoes from the walls
Conchita! the crowds acclaim
Conchita! their darling, rides
In the parade of the Matadors
Through cheering crowds
On her last fight she rides, Rejoneadora
As tradition requires, then turns
For permission to the Presidente
Denied, she dismounts
Confronting the bull, Matadora
Sword and cape raised to the bull’s charge
She lowers her sword to the sand, feigning
The final blow with her fingers
she offers a gentle caress
Between the massive, muscled shoulders
So different from those first abbatoir kills
When she practiced her skills
A Tango with the doomed bulls
Who danced to their bragging song until
She learned the tender spot behind the horns
On this one day in Franco’s Spain
The svelte Rejoneadora confronts tradition and history
A feminine icon drawn in the blood and sand of the bullring
With calm composure facing twelve hundred
Pounds of enraged bull, she seduced the crowds
Conchita! Her name echoes from the walls
Conchita! the audience roars
Brag sweet tenor bull
Conchita! The Sweet Matadora;
Leaves the arena crushing blood red
Carnations with each soft tread
The Peacocks Tears
In the bomb makers workshop on the dusty floor
Of an anonymous bungalow In Kabul
Bleach and fertilizer mix with dung and the dust
Here at night the peacocks roost in the high branches
By the edge of a moonlight bright stream
Pipes roughly sawn to size, spill steel filings to the floor
Detritus fizzing with spilt bleach
Coils of fishing wire and Flowers of Sulphur
Peahens gather beneath the trees in the waning moon
They conceive in the moments before a rising sun
The prize for this handiwork, a place amongst the martyrs of faith
Time spent with the virgins waiting in paradise, but first
The treacherous bombs have to be planted
I have seen a peacocks’ tears glisten beneath his eyes
Heard the delicate sound of the pea hen sipping tears from his cheeks
They wait for the approaching
Patrol, the young soldiers’ naïve, intent on survival
Queen and Country, treading cautiously
The only sound the pullulating of the eggs and, later still
The young birds tap, tapping on the hard shell
A boot snags the fishing line, triggered
The bomb blast dazzles and blinds
Scorching the dry Afghan earth
A Peacocks cry echoes across the cracked air.
She texted his phone
Secretly from her meeting
Visas were issued
Soon waiting in line
He watched his fellow travellers
Strangers on the flight
Low cloud meant delay
Past midnight the flight was called
The travellers rush
Flying cross the pond
Seven forty seven out
On a blind date
They arranged to meet
In London by the river
Red eye from New York
They met so brightly
Their kiss, signal cognition
Pleasure in greeting
He rose to her scent
The perfume of a woman
Stiffened his resolve
But she closed to him
Signalled access denied
Her independence
A wrong word spoken
Without thought he contrived
To break the silence
Sitting in the pub
Ordering bitter silence
Tears on the menu
Take five syllable
Keep talking avoid silence
The point is soon lost
Language divides
Love speaks eloquence is mute
He surrenders
Forfeits the moment
She disappears from view
Blind date, blind fury
All that remains
Echoes of her sharp footsteps
Clatter down Em b a n k ……
Lost words hang in air
Accusatory verbs
Men just want one thing
He takes the Express
Heathrow on to Kennedy
Flight uneventful
Back in his apart -
ment, music, open windows, Jazz
Street syncopation
Beneath his window
Haiku poets speak of love
He draws the blinds, sleeps.
Over breakfast conversation is no longer necessary
The spoon stirs the soft flakes
Of oat into the bowl, reflectively
i read the news, of snowflakes
Settling on the towns around
Leaving only the absence of sound
At the table I pour the tea
Into the days first cup and think
Ahead to what that lies before me
As in the stillness of this gentle start
I hear the soft ticking of times heart
The library clock above the bookshelves
Whispers the minutes one by one
Lost in the crossword I count the clues
And imagine I hear your tongue as you sip
Lick soft crumbs from your upper lip
These quiet days time passes slow
No hurrying to beat the rush hour
No fierce winding of the engine
To start the car and roar noisily away
Now I settle slowly to enjoy the day
Kindness
The ease with which
We spend our time
Together in the company
Of those we call our friends
Is shaped by the learning
At our mothers breast
Where we discover
The best of each other
And ourselves
So kindness
Becomes the currency
Through which our lives
Are expanded
And human virtue
And it’s many values
Defended
Building a cathedral as a defence against entropy
All around the sound
Of falling light
Soon it will enclose
The trees and animals
Of the wilderness there
And then when darkness
Has enclosed everything
And nothing disturbs
The stillness that lies
Far beyond sound
Then the gods will be sensed
As dwelling amongst us
Discerning the truth
Of the worlds anguish
And human defiance
And over time the dark
Will be pierced by starlight
The moon ringed by refracted light
And a cathedral
Built in the forest canopy
To defend us from what lies
Beyond knowing
The penitent
In the church of the Holy Sepulchre
The sinner settles softly to his task
The balance sheet of life his repertoire
For all I have done wrong, good lord, I ask
Penitent he seeks to remake his soul
To settle the account that he has made
Restore his broken life, to make it whole
Ensuring his cumulate debts are paid
His posture one of simple penitence
His confessor echoes his quiet word
Barely able to speak but one sentence
A mumbled rosary remained unheard
Clerestory light falls through dust specked air
The penitent remains lost in prayer
Monday, 22 March 2010
Friday, 26 February 2010
Shelton: making steel at night
Raw power
Fiery splendour
Molten sky
Spreading glow
From Etruria Vale
Shelton steel
A crucible sky
Reddening
The five towns
This is an edited version of my first poem published in Staffordshire Life in 1965
Exploration of a song bird lost in a fisherman’s hopefulness
Song Bird
Dancing
On a high tree branch
Song Bird
Singing
In a night meadow
Fisherman
Netting
In a pale night sea
Fisherman
Catching
All the sad sea fish
Orange in
The sunlight
Silver in the moon
Catch me
A Song Bird
Fisherman today
This early poem was published by Salisbury Theological College 1967
The Poet in Red Sneakers
Today I bought
A fine pair
Of red sneakers
I thought to myself
If I am going to be a poet again
I’d rather not be
An April showers
Hearts and flowers
Once upon a time
Verses that rhyme
Be my valentine
Kind of poet
No!
I thought to myself
If I’m going to be a poet again
I’d rather be cool
Nobody’s fool
Righteously radical
Armed to the teeth
With a real hard edge
In red sneakers
Kind of poet
So!
Today I bought
A fine pair
Of red sneakers
But this was no snap decision
I thought long and hard
I went to the store
And I went back again
I consulted my wife
And I talked with my kids
I studied the sizes
And studied the shades
I tried on the black
And I tried on the grey
I looked at the purple
And considered the green
And thought of a compromise
In orange and blue with pink spots
But at the end of the day
The decision was mine
And I made it
Like men have to do
I just went to the
Store and pointed
Them out and said
Wrap up a pair
Of those highly regarded
Quite world famous boot’s
Called ‘connors’ or ‘chuck’ or ‘converse’
And when asked about colour
I said it quite clear
I’ll take red
Make ‘em red
Make ‘em radically, righteously red
Like the Kremlin at sunset
Or Moscow at dawn
Make them red
Like poetry and blood
Today I bought
A fine pair
Of red sneakers
I’d been up
All the night
With friends who had called
We had drunk
Till the dawn
And talked ‘til the bottle was gone
It was that
Kind of night
A fine kind of night
When things become clear
And friendships grow deep and grow strong
And now it was day
And we took things quite slow
As our friends made ready to go
And we rested some more
Until finally I felt it was time
As a mark of this day
And the night we had spent
Of the time that we’d had
And the plans that we laid
And the dreams
So I crossed Harvard Square
With deliberate steps
And bought me a pair
A good, fine, strong pair
Of red sneakers in which to write poems such as this
This poem was written in 1985 and first published at a reading at Harvard University.
Dating the earliest people in Japan
She would always be up first
Smiling, she would attend to her tasks
Her family were all the same, up before three
They were the earliest people in Japan
And I loved her paper house, the way
Her silk kimono slid to the floor
It never failed to be stimulating
Dating the earliest people in Japan
Hers moods were constantly changing
Sometimes at night she’d claim to be tired
Then she’d wake just before three, that’s when shed make me
One of the earliest people in Japan
This poem was joint winner of the Bloodaxe/Evening Chronicle Poetry Competition 1985
The Fine Art of Skimming Stones
My best was
A twelver, twelve
Flat leaps of stones, skimming
Across mill pond water
Like twelve mill stones
Spinning on hot afternoons
Spent, searching for the
Ideal, flat, smooth, rounded
Pebbly stone, comfortable
Between thumb and forefinger
To throw, pulling back with five
Deft fingers, to fly, and spin
Across the water, fascinating children
With my childish skill
Today’s Poem, Newcastle Evening Chronicle October 1st 1985
Incident at the Gare du Nord
A final flick / Of the comb
The collar of the black
Leather turned up
The studs burnished
Belt buckled, Levis tight
He heads into the night
The moon filters
Coffee fine through / Cloud cover
He works the stations
Is known to the gendarmerie
Is light on his feet
Moves fast separating
Wallets from pockets
Money from wallets
He quickly discards
Into the waste baskets
On platform nine
Tonight his worst fear
Challenged he runs
Panting, short of breath
The pain in his chest
Echoes against the tunnel’s closing
Walls. Out into the night air
Cornered by a young
Gendarme. Less street wise
Looking for a commendation
In the laser light / And sodium glare
The final flick of the knife
A blade glimmers / A body crumples
Dull on the glistening street
He turns up the collar
Of his leather, studs burnished
And steps into the night
Levis stretched tight
Over the blade he always carries
In the left hip pocket
This poem was a runner up in the Bloodaxe/Evening Chronicle Poetry Competition 1986
Discovering China by Train
They told me this is where you’d be
For all your constant seeking
From Shangai to Peking
Across the China Sea
Following the ancient track
You exchange simple pleasantry
With the local peasantry
Travelling to winter and back
Your peasant shirt is faded
I see you approaching the ferry
At Tunglu wearing your red beret
You look older, perhaps, jaded
The ferry is pursued by a flight of Chinese birds
Seeing you make this transition
Without your usual precision
Such a lack of feeling for words
That’s why you feel so much pain
Stumbling around in the wrong sentences
Dropping all your pretences
It’s a relief to hear, you’re discovering China by train
Written at The Arvon Foundation and Published in Hotlines, Lumb Bank, 1986
Magpies
Magpies scavenge form the past
Steal our futures, fly in pairs
Appear in one’s, bring
Poor luck than judgement
‘I can’t do with magpies’
He said. Unsmiling. Deciding
Something must be done
About the pair nesting in the
Bottom meadow in the elm
By the road. So he took his gun
Down from the shelf
In the kitchen and two
Cartridges, their dull orange
And brass shining caps from the
Box he kept in the
Dresser. I was eager to see
What would be done
I’m left now with nagging
Confused images. Sound
And colour, yellow, green
And the scudding clouds white
Against the summer blue sky
A tantalising glimpse of
Bare flesh, nipple, stomach, thigh
Lovers belly to belly, thrashing
Like beached fish, their gasping
Sound tracking the carnage
Each memory, a ripple
Like silver in the current
Strips of torn foil cascading
From the magpies nest, blown apart
Chicks and all. Silver foil
Crumpled like the reverberating air
Published in New Writing from the North. Midnag 1988
Mrs Thatcher’s Fair Isle Knitting Pattern
Knit me a coat
With barbed wire and wool
A coat that will survive
And protect me
A barbed wire wool coat
That won’t rust in the rain
A coat that won’t stretch twist
Or strain
The old ladies needles
Danced in their hands
As they knitted the coat
She desired
They used plain knit and purl
Cable stitch and stocking
Arran and Fair Isle
and Rib
As with barbed wire
And pain they cast
Stitches in time to complete
Her perfect design
Published in 7 Days (The Communist Party Weekly) January 28th 1989
Good News from Leningrad
Rumours are flooding the town
The price of lemons is dropping fast
Fresh vegetables in the store at last
The consumption of Vodka is down
The news from the west is no fun
Rape, murder, pillage
Threatens every village
The despair affects everyone
Here in Leningrad
The news gets better and better
The interior once dry is now wetter
Things that were worse are just bad
The chairman’s lady looking so grand
The heart-throb of the USSR, such style
Her furs and underneath only a smile
Sends a warming glow through the troops in Afghanistan
On T.V. this evening the newscaster was allowed a rare smile
The news was extremely satisfactory
Output is up at the tractor factory
The news just gets better all the while
This poem, also published in 7 Days, attracted a critical letter it was felt not to be PC
A feeling for danger dear Ulrike
Your getaway car
Leaves the police
Fingerprinting
The exhaust clouds
Blue haze
You went through
The library window
Hitting the ground
You slipped through it
Unconventional / As departures go
Since then
You’ve taken me hostage
Held me in the open
Prison of my fascination
I’m trapped
Like an image on film
Now I feel anxious
Watching the daily news
Captive you captured
My future / I’ve surrendered
All the possibilities
Now I see you
Bursting through
Concrete walls
Bearing the full
Weight of the law
My recurring nightmare
Getaway cars
Surrounded, flood lit
On a thousand
Anonymous forecourts
I’m constantly
Planning escapes
Making new identities
Expecting to be recognised
At borders
Published in Thursdays Poetry Magazine No 11 June 1988
Memory Songs
The critic says you’re
Too consciously writing
POEMS
Let the feelings flow
From the words
Let the emotions run
Riot like kids on the streets
Burning down houses
And looting the shops
Of your mind
Don’t worry about form
Or verse or rhyme, the
POEMS
Will come they’ll be there
Torn from your subconscious
Stream of consciousness
Like new born children
Fully formed
And when you are in touch
With your feelings
Like this, the
POEMS
Will come
True to the truth
You’ve discovered
Love songs
From memory’s
Juke box
Published in issue 25 of People to People, New writing now in the West Midlands
The Poem Must be Spoken
Each day we plan careful progress
Some days are faster
Most are less
But now flowers grow where once there were none
A signature has
Replaced anon
In our garden we plant radish beds
The leaves come first
And then the heads
Each day we attend the newly planted garden
But after rain and sun
The ground begins to harden
But still the miracle is renewed
A delicate tracery
Of roots and stalks force through
The ground is hard and must be broken
As the poem, to be heard
Must first be spoken
This poem appeared first in Thursdays and later the magazine Christian, issue14 1989
A fragment
Footsteps outside the
Window, the tread of
Feet on gravel, the
Visitors who pause
And go their way
Their unanswered knock
Echoing in the empty hall
Way of our hearts. Left alone
We measure distance
Casting the stone
Into the hearts well
And counting the moments
Until the distant echo tells
How far we are apart
How lonely passions
Separate us. This continuing
Drama of our love
Published in Landscapes of the Heart, Canon Books, Newcastle and Christian 1988
And collected in New Christian Poetry Ed Alwyn Marriage 1990
Visiting Josephine Butler’s Grave at Kirknewton Churchyard
Screech of peacock
Across a still day
On the road verge
Peacock feathers
Tasselled ribs
Collected
For a brighter memento
Celandine in the stream
Birdsong bee drone
Lichen on the gravestone
Fingers tracing
Time-blurred letters
In warm stone
Such strong passion
Drowned in grief
And transformed
Collected in New Christian Poetry Ed Alwyn Marriage 1990
In the Chapel at Dornie, Wester Ross
The place is set for a small Eucharist
In the chapel still smelling of newness
Under its roof of compressed straw
A congregation is gathered
Visitors from Glasgow and the south
To start the service, ritual prescribes
The choosing of the hymns
The preparation of the altar, adorning
Oneself in Eucharistic vestments
The lighting, of the candles, which is why
In the stillness of the cloud riven
Morning, eyes fixed on the back of my neck
I struggle to strike the damp, highland
Matches on the soft box
Before the word can be spoken or the bread broken
Collected in A Touch of Flame Ed Jenny Robertson 1989
A Poem on your Birthday
This is the day to rise to the occasion
In time, in experience, with elation
The turning of the year, your anniversary
Demands from me a special bursary
A gift that bequests its own kind of pleasure
The memory of which in days to come you will treasure
Your life has been marked with loss and pain
Your parents dying when you were least able to explain
The meaning of loss and the loneliness growing
As you raised your own children knowing
How much pleasure they would have given your
Parents who they in return would have adored
The loss of your health to a chronic illness
The increased dependency costing you more not less
The times and days through which you have passed
Living each to the full, as the days dance past
It would be good if our new life together
Could enjoy a brief spell of more settled weather
You have grown older, wiser, more mature
My aim today is to do my utmost to ensure
That the days which lie ahead are filled
So that seductive siren voices can be stilled
That constantly argue, there should be more
We’re missing out; there is now only a memory store
From today we can recommit our friendship
Drink a satisfying draft from the loving cup
Take each day as it comes as though it were a gift
Designed to take our spirits and lift
Them so that we can walk through these autumn days
Of our life with a spring in our step as we find new ways
Written for my wife Janet to celebrate her birthday in 2007
A Translation from the Portugese
Poetry is all artifice and tricks
Making new art from old licks
Poets inventing pain they are not feeling
From the work of others, unaware they must be stealing
Sometimes they read the writing
And transfer as they are reading
Emotions, stresses, heartaches and strain
You cannot fairly steal another’s pain
So round they go these written verses
Each adapting to renewed purpose
Quite leaving reader and writer out of breath
Like a stunt rider on the wall of death
Published in Lyrics of Life, United Press
Imagine this
Imagine this
A picture painted with words
A distant landscape
Figures pressing forward
A progress, crowds
Obscuring the central
Character, dust, a hazy sun
Imagine drawing
Closer, hearing
Sound carried on still air
A cry of pain, an angry shout
The sound of leather tearing flesh
A wounded animal scream
Imagine drawing nearer still
Imagine the smell
Of sweat stained bodies
Mingled scents, the smell of raw wounds
The cloying sweetness of blood
Imagine blinking
Missing the final scene
The body lifted
High, the puzzled
Onlookers uncertainty
At what is taking place,
Drifting away
Imagine, from a safe
Distance, looking
Back at the scene
Three figures on three trees
And at the foot of the middle tree
Two kneeling, a man
A woman weeping and a voice
If you sing, sing my name
let your words echo my virtue not my shame
A reflection on vocation
Radio Therapy
Your endurance
is legendary, arms
outstretched as if
to embrace this
healing ray or ray of death
whatever the hell it is
only time will tell
How you as a target
of their concern
bear your breasts
patiently in dignified
suffering
A crucified Madonna
dying a little each day
giving life
to those you love
Written whilst watching my wife Janet’s radio therapy treatment for breast cancer
Slow Lane
Its all the rage now
taking it slow
easing into the day
my former up and at ‘em
style is passé now
Now I dance
to the slow rhythm
of the weeks pulse
where entropy
pervades.
The diary I have never
kept counts back
from Friday one day
at a time
Until Monday
passes and is gone
forever.
A Refelection on Retirement
Shere Gullion
Shere Gullion is clothed
In mist and myth
Words whispered by
The whipping wind
Sure it takes the words
Right off yer mouth
Here in this brackish
Water, Fin McCool
Was bewitched
By the weeping maiden
Sure she was so pretty
She was, she was
History and mystery
Unfolds with the tears
And years of troubles
Fought and lost
On this bracken slope
Sure the giants play
A thunderous game today
The hillside is littered
With burnt out cars
Where Joe Cool practises
Handbrake turns, re-writes
The myths of troubled times
And the maiden still weeps
Sure he’s one of them all right
Keep yer fecking mouth shut, OK
The RUC secure
Behind galvanised steel
The tri-colour dances
On the uneasy wind
Found as a note written after a sponsored walk in ‘bandit’ country, South Armargh 2005
Air Raid
Black hawk hovering
On wings of mouse
A silent prescence
Punctuating the grey
Pages of the sky
Beneath the animals
Fear prickling fur
As the scurry
Sheltering under the russet
Rustling autumn leaves
Small hearts fast
Pulsing till the lark
Rises to sound
The all clear
A poem written at a writing workshop that I ran in Northumberland
From our Yachting Correspondent
(A translation from the Dutch)
Day 14 of our passage
Still the unfamiliar sea
Stretches to the anonymous
Horizon, taunting
The wind from the south
Fills the sail fitfully
With idle gusts
We drift with the currents
Like sea kelp, flotsam
Of squandered lives
We speak of tying up for the night
Against an unfamiliar
Quayside. Long to be awakened
By strange accents
And a new language
Not a translation. nor is it about yachtingAwakening
It was another of those moments
like fine wine turned to vinegar
and decanted. There was
only silence left in the glass
lying on the bedroom floor
a spillage from
its gaping mouth, like a wound
seeping into the carpet.
It was the only clue
that you had been here
the silence and a chiffon
scarf draped idly
over the end of the bed
an early morning sun
seeped through the half closed curtains
picking out the note
lying in the dust on the dresser
This was a poetry competition winner at Fircroft College, Birmingham
The Water Meadows Salisbury - 1967
days are drawn out as we move into a future of untested promise
as in a meadow scented with just cut Timothy
in these meadows a thousand years were celebrated
and in those Sweet Vernal days I celebrated meeting you
for Fisher, Constable pictures the graceful beauty of the spire
as I now picture your graceful beauty and your Lady’s Smock
An exercise based on the word ‘meadow’ for my writing workshop
Creed River
Turbulence of peat
Brown water, Salmon
Sing their spawning song
Tuned to the rivers
Symphony the chorus
Rises like psalms
Gaelic echoes, language
As old as these hills
As the spawning memory
Of these gallant
Majestic fish, lissom
Silver in the peat brown water
In truth there were more poems than fish
The Church of the Sunday Jazz
The church of the Sunday jazz
Gathers on the first Sunday
Of each month
To worship
At the altar of funk
Whether in heaven with Stephan
Or playing classics with Stan
The time signatures
With a modernist twist
Worship at the altar of funk
The church of the Sunday jazz
Gathers on the first Sunday
Bringing the cool to the borders
New York sophistication
To worship at the altar of funk
Playing the blues, paying their dues
Players keep their rhythms strict
As they divide time between sets
Honouring the heroes of jazz
At the altar of funk
I wrote this to celebrate the Sunday Jazz concerts at The Buccleuch Centre in Langholm it was published on the Mungrizedale writers web-site
I come into the presence of still water
Resting in quiet pools
As giddy waters roar past
Floating in a gentle eddy
In this quiet backwater
Where dappled trout rest under trees
camouflaged by a dappling sun
As with Larkin’s invented religion
Dedicated and named from water
I come into the presence
Of still water, to find faith
In the gentle support of the stream
I rest in the dream of peace and more
Water bears my weightless self
dappled trout nibble my toes
An exercise written for my first mungrisedale writers meeting
The Night Shift Chocolate Awards
The lights in the chocolate factory windows
Are switched off one by one
Production of dark chocolate gives way to milk
Each desperate demand for assistance
Is greeted with scorn by our competitors
The governing and the governed enjoy our chocolate bars
Cautiously feeling your way to coincidence
You shed skins revealing
The pulsating beauty of milk white flesh
After reviewing his fleet with measured tread
And one hand inside his vest
The Red Admiral defects
For new found prosperity in the west
After destroying your instructions you meet him at dawn
On a shingle shore, signaling with a shuttered lamp
As his submarine noses its way onto land
You wish you had bothered to dress
Offering his hand he whispers is it true that
There’s a glass and a half in each breast?
Knowing that a broad alliance of money and culture
Threatens the destruction of all you hold dear
You suckle the child at your breast
Like a giant his eyes open wide
His small hand paws at your blue veined skin
Settling his head he falls asleep, just then
The lights in the chocolate factory announce
Another run of dark chocolate has begun
An exercise in surrealism published in People to People Issue 9
The Natural Theology of Rivers
The story unfolds
In stages as the cloud
Lifts and gathers the snowy sagas
On the high peaks.
We drive through these torturous
Narrow roads, climbing
To the watershed
Storm driven under
Dour skies, grey curtains
Of raw weather wash
The ice white of the glaciers
Blue waters, trapping the memories
Of a thousand summer skies
Streams cascade through
Forested slopes, long plumed
Fingers reaching down, wrapping
The mountains like wires
Gathering force into icy
Depths, stirring the deep
Fathomed water, boiling
The surface white
This gathering power
Of water forces itself
Through a narrow gateway
Of hard stone, haunches
Lifted, twisted, forced,
Through the narrowing gap
Granting power to
the raging river
The animus of this natural
Force conjures from those
Along its way the image
Of another deeper life
Beyond their own imagining
Spirits of nature, dancing
Dancing, weaving, inter-weaving
Stories of threat and promise
This force demands respect
Requires sacrifice
As it passes under the seven
Stone arches of the low
Bridge washing the bones
Of the sacrificed
Satiated waters force subdued
Energy tamed, gentled by the contours
In the valley floor as the river weaves
And wanders slowly streaming through
A rich landscape to mingle fresh waters with salt.
Written in Norway in 2008
The Arithmetic of Love
The maquette sits on the dust
specked window sill
these unheeding lovers enjoy
endless tantric sex
a permanent state of nirvana
orgasm, bliss, sun kissed, ceramic skin
For forty years it has been placed
in house after house, but only for the last
twenty, have we been safe from its spell
In the beginning, rows would flare without warning
cross words, criticism, anger, pain
and later as we tenderly kissed
our bruised bodies and our egos
we might notice that a jarring
sudden movement or gentle breeze
had caused our tantric lovers to fall apart
her open loins revealed, his erection exposed, raw
Over the years we did the arithmetic
of love, two and two became four
and after one particular, painful exchange
when divorce seemed all but inevitable
we agreed that the power of the marquette
should be contained at last
It sits, as it has for twenty
years now, on dust speckled window sills
unheeding lovers in their close
embrace, bathed now in soft Cumbrian light
We look and smile and wonder
at this symbol of settled state
and trust the Blue-Tack will hold
our lovers in their contained passion
A mystery yet to be explainedSymmetries
Of life’s symmetries
There is, it seems no ending
As truth follows falsehood or day
Night these juxtapositions
Of grace, which some chose to call God
Some choose to call by other names
Whilst not denying the symmetry
As when in the deep loss of love
When grief numbs the soul
So often, it seems, the promise
Of new life can seem as the dawn
Rising on a still morning promising
So much that is new whilst remaining
In essence the very same
Death often requires patient
Waiting, as the dying prepare to leave
The shell of this life as a kernel
Sheds the husk until the final rattle
Signifies the end of life
Just as in its own way
Birth too requires waiting, less patient
Perhaps as the newly born
Finally determines that its time has come
And bursts into the present
Drawing a first hungry breath, announcing
It’s joy at this new thing
Of life’s symmetry
There is it seems no ending
As re-birth, resurrection
Follows death and its silence
This juxtaposition of grace
Some choose to call God
Or simply see coincidence
Whilst recognizing the symmetry
A poem written in response to a ‘phone call from a friend to tell me that he was to become a grandfather
The Dangers of Fire
beat the body down crushed bones into flames
the roaring fires all consuming energy sparked
to the stake he comes embraces naked flames
beat the body down crushed bones boiling blood
the rich mix calcium phosphate glowing
with his right hand embraces wood and fire
bright holograms pictures a face his beard on fire
sightless now incandescent candescent acrid stench
no beauty here just the beaten body burning
the fire gets up he neither stirs or cries
unrepentant unprotesting shriven annealed
friend of king but not of queens or rome
they beat the body down into crushed bones of ash damp earth
words remain the book remains they cannot burn the book
the psalms are recited vulgar words remain even as
they beat the body down as fire draws his life out
with indrawn fiery breath he draws back his words
they beat the body down scatter crushed bones to the wind
unsudden death comes slow lightning sparks tempestuous fire
this pain more than I can bear I am beaten into earthen ends
A meditation on the death of Thomas Cranmer
The Rain (after Hernandez)
Still fields, A feeling of rain
The cattle lying, low cloud
on the fell. The gravedigger
cuts a trench in cemetery earth
Uncovering the earlier dead,
flattening the bones
into trenched earth
beneath a weeping sky
During the night the trench
will fill with water, in the morning
it will be pumped dry, leaving
a fragrance of damp earth
The cortege approaches steady
as the falling rain, footsteps
shuffling on a damp path
splashing through puddles
The silence concentrates
as the coffin is laid to rest
The dead know peace, rain chills
the mourners huddle together
concentrate to hear the words recited
over the dead, who lie soundless in their wooden vestments
Around the graveyard the trees
lean in to the gathering darkness
as if listening to the words, their roots
curling through earth. Under the shadow
of the guardian trees
the passion of water deepens
I wote this after reading Hernandez the Spanish civil war poet in translation
Invasion
I sit up in a strange bed
Krupa playing a drum solo in my head
Wondering who you were and whether
I had ever asked your name
before we slipped between the sheets
making love into the oblivion of early morning
Too much wine, slipping like velvet
down my dry throat, more wine is always less
Too much is never enough, nodding
to our hostess, who brings another bottle
I sit up in a strange bed, look at
your sleeping form and give thanks
I’ve occupied a whole country
without benefit of either armour or tanks
A morning after the night before poem
Dragonflies over Basra
Across the water, iridescence
in bright summer air
reflects rainbow light
As pulsing wings shimmer
Above the desert town
The hollow emptiness of the day
against blue sky, shadows
shape and form, muezzins’ calls
drift across the water
A harsh pulsing of rotors
Warm air winnowing
the nights’ noisescape
the bitter bite of bullets
the dragonflies night assault
This poem was written at the time of the war in Iraq
St Seburg, August 19th
Nuremburg notes
Wagnerian voluntaries
soar across history’s broad reaches
This damp August
day we recall St Seburg
remembered for his miracles
transforming frozen waste to fire
Icicles’ sharp crackle
Diamante lights sparkle
their encased brilliance
released, teasing the eye
with shards of icicle fire
Seburg, Nuremburg
trial by fire, the world’s thirst for justice
Seburgs constant prayer
Another war themed poem written on St Seburg’s day
Squantum
Explorations in literature, hardbacks
crunch underfoot, soft backs
give gently beneath our toes
Words shattered, sentences deconstructed
paragraphs parsed, essays précised
to within a column inch of their lives
Literature junkies hang out partying
in the stacks, stumbling around in the wrong sentences
such a lack of feeling for words
The literary jungle is home to a rebel army
past participles reclassified, nouns lost
in the enjambments of time
Manifesto’s loaded with conjugated
verbs, magazines full of rhetoric, speeches
recorded as inspiration for future generations
Occasionally I like to write about the art of writing
speed dating @ 60
1959, 100 mph on a 57 Vincent
Me, thrilled to be alive, two up
on the Preston by Pass. Since then
I've loved to travel fast speed dating at 60,
watching the road disappear beneath my tyres
on the edge of control, the wind
whipping breath and words away
Accelerating past 60, poems lost
in the slipstream as the motorcycle I ride
becomes an iron horse in the gasoline age
Now I want to make a date with destiny
just me alone, on my bike
accelerating into the unknown, my epitaph
No more dating at 60, he's gone on his final ride.
Anticipation
A low sun etching
The grey sky with gold
Waking next to you
The two of us once so fetching
Now growing disgracefully old
Dreaming like the movies
Naked like film stars
Planning the future true
Here we are old lovers
Hanging round the bars
Maintaining our habits together
Getting high on our hopes
Climbing for a better view
Observing the changing weather
Bouncing off the ropes
Consciously changing direction
Keeping the pace real slow
Me relying on you
Negotiating a life extension
Reaping what we sow
Just getting older I guess
Travelling Companions
I see your reflection
In the windows of the train
Your half smiling reverie
Your half expressed disdain
My covert glance
Avoids your eyes
Admiring the view
I invent seductive lies
Of course you notice my gauche look
Whilst pretending to read your book
The train rattles south
Clattering through idle rural halts
The stops that we make unscheduled
By points or crossing faults
From time to time
You cross and uncross your legs
The electrifying kiss of sheer nylon
You can’t make omelettes without breaking eggs
Sends shock waves tingling in my spine
In the reflection I catch your smiling sign
I'm
I’m here and waiting in vain
I’m sixty and dating again
I’m uncertain about what to do next
I’m not used to dating by text
I’m loving this modern age
I’m clear that www is all the rage
I’m thinking of offering you dinner
I’m thinking we might become sinners
I’m keen to make you my lover
I’m thinking only of you and no other
I’m tired of sending my own valentines
I’m hoping for one that says will you be mine
Sonnet of the deceitful speed dater
First, the Japanese creative writer
We smile and run out of conversation
Next the Polish lady, a nail biter,
was too tense beneath her false elation
So on we moved to another table
My third was French, a young mademoiselle
She left just as soon as she was able
I watch her waiting for the all change bell
And on we move again, this common round
Then I see your face and hear your bitter words
When I ‘phoned to say I wouldn’t be round
I thought University of the Third
Age, was an excellent cover for me
Yours was the last face I thought I would see
Requiem
The surreal quality of the light
the air, the sounds of the night
echo in the square
The complex history of shadows
the interplay of earth and blood
the winter sun
the promenade fills the busy
streets with crowds
In our attics high above, pigeons bring
messages with greetings
from those we love
Skye Scape
Intermittent pulses of soft
Rain, interspersed with sun
A strong breeze blowing
Constantly from the outer Isles
The arched proscenium
Of the rainbow the colour of tweed
The seascape a constant filtering of light
Adjusting for colour and reception
Horizontal and vertical holds
Failing as sun makes way for rain
On the sea at low water, tide wrack
The water fitful, anxious to return
Dr Johnson’s Request
Each word bore the weight of meaning
Was given definition tending to plain speaking
At the end, Dr Johnson enquired of his executor
Where do you intend To bury me?
‘In the Abbey’, replied Sir John, ‘where else
Do you expect to be laid to rest?’
‘If that is to be the case the Doctor replied
Then lay a stone to protect my body’
Knowing that his physical body
Would perish whilst the body of his work
Required no such protection
The Poem will be Slow
Preparing myself in order
to be ready to fly
I think the poem will be slow
exhaled like a sigh
As we look down on the border
you reach out to the shadow on the land
tracing its movement on the window
with your soft and gentle hand
Questioning the disorder
that has come into your day
you watch the world turning below
and then turn slowly away
In the Horn of the Moon Cafe
In the Horn of the Moon Café
By the iron bridge
We took our leave over lunch
Broke bread together, spilled the wine
I remember it rained
As we turned onto 89
Travelling south
To the airport
Already the memories fade
Surely there was more
To it than photographs
In a drawer
And no matter
Where I look I cannot find
The photo I took
Of the Horn in the Moon Cafe
Sculpture
Beneath the terrain
Of the Hebrides
The earth shifts
And settles
Polished earth
Polished stone
Hills and valleys
In settled corrugation
And contour
In these hills
And sea scoured lochs
The images of mirrored stone
Concave and convex
Reflect the human
Artifice the shapes
And shadows
We pause to view
A sculpture
Its drama contained
In the poise of the stone
The tension that holds
It in place in the landscape
But the guidebook
Has no record of the artist
Or of its making
Or placing, this is a natural
Stone placed by glacial energy
Or tectonic force
To be respected
Ploughed around
And left to stand
Over times stillness
Salmon Rise
When the salmon run
time is lost
peat dark pools
appear in my eyes
When the salmon run
Sea falls below
the equinox and my heart
sings a new song
The lamps are set
for an early rise
Thermos coffee
by the waters edge
When the salmon run
rippling the waters surface
silver flashes
in the rivers song
Chocolate Words
If poetry was chocolate
I would offer you
mouth to mouth
recitation
Cody to Dieppe
From Marlow to York
There is talk
But never a crossword
In jest or otherwise I heard
From the barrier reef
To Nazca or Cuzco in Peru
I will follow you
To the ends of the earth
Your scent is become my passion
I long to become accustomed
To your presence
If only the depth can be plumbed
Join me for a journey just a short hop
As we set sail on Cody to Dieppe
The Retreat
‘………………………. you are here to kneel, where prayer has been valid. And prayer is more than an order of words, the conscious occupation of the praying mind, or the sound of the voice praying’ TS Eliot Little Gidding
The House Martins
Are building again
Their nests of mud
Thatched into the under eaves
Of the house
This constant attention
To the detail of the task
Finds echoes
In the birdsong, bee drone
Of this English summer day
Natures tapestry
Weaves its pattern, Eliot’s
Voluptuary sweetness
Erupts around us in profusions
Luxuriant green intoxicating scents
Deep rose embers
Of the fire which once
burned in the bud
And we are here for prayer
To dip into the deep
Flowing stream of prayer which
Across time has acquired its own validity
The precious sentimentality
Of the scraps of memory
Thought and unfulfilled aspiration
Are pieced together
In a patchwork design
We throw over our bed as we sleep
Embraced in warmth
Our dreams help us make sense
Of what was, what is, what is yet to be
The Drowning Man Serenaded by Bells
The drowning man
Face down in the mill race
Was drawn by the sluice
At an accelerating pace
The river powerfully roars
The mill wheels slowly grind
And as he drifts past
No one seems to mind
They couldn’t hear his gurgles
As he floats past singing
There is the comforting sound
Of church bells ringing
The Fulmar
The Fulmar feeds and flies. In the gales’ bitter teeth.
Strong winds chill the bones. This land of saints and tides.
In the Island church prayers for the dead and dying.
Memory imprinted in the genetic blueprint of a people.
Not the Saints imprint but the unsanctified.
Across hostile waters that will win in the end.
Swamp these lands and wash out the memory
Unsettle the settlements and turn the village to raw
Earth, sand dunes. Scatter the sheep. Unfold the lambs.
Listen carefully to the caterwauling wind
This thin place between heaven and earth
This place of quiet death. Of wailing birth
Raw power
Fiery splendour
Molten sky
Spreading glow
From Etruria Vale
Shelton steel
A crucible sky
Reddening
The five towns
This is an edited version of my first poem published in Staffordshire Life in 1965
Exploration of a song bird lost in a fisherman’s hopefulness
Song Bird
Dancing
On a high tree branch
Song Bird
Singing
In a night meadow
Fisherman
Netting
In a pale night sea
Fisherman
Catching
All the sad sea fish
Orange in
The sunlight
Silver in the moon
Catch me
A Song Bird
Fisherman today
This early poem was published by Salisbury Theological College 1967
The Poet in Red Sneakers
Today I bought
A fine pair
Of red sneakers
I thought to myself
If I am going to be a poet again
I’d rather not be
An April showers
Hearts and flowers
Once upon a time
Verses that rhyme
Be my valentine
Kind of poet
No!
I thought to myself
If I’m going to be a poet again
I’d rather be cool
Nobody’s fool
Righteously radical
Armed to the teeth
With a real hard edge
In red sneakers
Kind of poet
So!
Today I bought
A fine pair
Of red sneakers
But this was no snap decision
I thought long and hard
I went to the store
And I went back again
I consulted my wife
And I talked with my kids
I studied the sizes
And studied the shades
I tried on the black
And I tried on the grey
I looked at the purple
And considered the green
And thought of a compromise
In orange and blue with pink spots
But at the end of the day
The decision was mine
And I made it
Like men have to do
I just went to the
Store and pointed
Them out and said
Wrap up a pair
Of those highly regarded
Quite world famous boot’s
Called ‘connors’ or ‘chuck’ or ‘converse’
And when asked about colour
I said it quite clear
I’ll take red
Make ‘em red
Make ‘em radically, righteously red
Like the Kremlin at sunset
Or Moscow at dawn
Make them red
Like poetry and blood
Today I bought
A fine pair
Of red sneakers
I’d been up
All the night
With friends who had called
We had drunk
Till the dawn
And talked ‘til the bottle was gone
It was that
Kind of night
A fine kind of night
When things become clear
And friendships grow deep and grow strong
And now it was day
And we took things quite slow
As our friends made ready to go
And we rested some more
Until finally I felt it was time
As a mark of this day
And the night we had spent
Of the time that we’d had
And the plans that we laid
And the dreams
So I crossed Harvard Square
With deliberate steps
And bought me a pair
A good, fine, strong pair
Of red sneakers in which to write poems such as this
This poem was written in 1985 and first published at a reading at Harvard University.
Dating the earliest people in Japan
She would always be up first
Smiling, she would attend to her tasks
Her family were all the same, up before three
They were the earliest people in Japan
And I loved her paper house, the way
Her silk kimono slid to the floor
It never failed to be stimulating
Dating the earliest people in Japan
Hers moods were constantly changing
Sometimes at night she’d claim to be tired
Then she’d wake just before three, that’s when shed make me
One of the earliest people in Japan
This poem was joint winner of the Bloodaxe/Evening Chronicle Poetry Competition 1985
The Fine Art of Skimming Stones
My best was
A twelver, twelve
Flat leaps of stones, skimming
Across mill pond water
Like twelve mill stones
Spinning on hot afternoons
Spent, searching for the
Ideal, flat, smooth, rounded
Pebbly stone, comfortable
Between thumb and forefinger
To throw, pulling back with five
Deft fingers, to fly, and spin
Across the water, fascinating children
With my childish skill
Today’s Poem, Newcastle Evening Chronicle October 1st 1985
Incident at the Gare du Nord
A final flick / Of the comb
The collar of the black
Leather turned up
The studs burnished
Belt buckled, Levis tight
He heads into the night
The moon filters
Coffee fine through / Cloud cover
He works the stations
Is known to the gendarmerie
Is light on his feet
Moves fast separating
Wallets from pockets
Money from wallets
He quickly discards
Into the waste baskets
On platform nine
Tonight his worst fear
Challenged he runs
Panting, short of breath
The pain in his chest
Echoes against the tunnel’s closing
Walls. Out into the night air
Cornered by a young
Gendarme. Less street wise
Looking for a commendation
In the laser light / And sodium glare
The final flick of the knife
A blade glimmers / A body crumples
Dull on the glistening street
He turns up the collar
Of his leather, studs burnished
And steps into the night
Levis stretched tight
Over the blade he always carries
In the left hip pocket
This poem was a runner up in the Bloodaxe/Evening Chronicle Poetry Competition 1986
Discovering China by Train
They told me this is where you’d be
For all your constant seeking
From Shangai to Peking
Across the China Sea
Following the ancient track
You exchange simple pleasantry
With the local peasantry
Travelling to winter and back
Your peasant shirt is faded
I see you approaching the ferry
At Tunglu wearing your red beret
You look older, perhaps, jaded
The ferry is pursued by a flight of Chinese birds
Seeing you make this transition
Without your usual precision
Such a lack of feeling for words
That’s why you feel so much pain
Stumbling around in the wrong sentences
Dropping all your pretences
It’s a relief to hear, you’re discovering China by train
Written at The Arvon Foundation and Published in Hotlines, Lumb Bank, 1986
Magpies
Magpies scavenge form the past
Steal our futures, fly in pairs
Appear in one’s, bring
Poor luck than judgement
‘I can’t do with magpies’
He said. Unsmiling. Deciding
Something must be done
About the pair nesting in the
Bottom meadow in the elm
By the road. So he took his gun
Down from the shelf
In the kitchen and two
Cartridges, their dull orange
And brass shining caps from the
Box he kept in the
Dresser. I was eager to see
What would be done
I’m left now with nagging
Confused images. Sound
And colour, yellow, green
And the scudding clouds white
Against the summer blue sky
A tantalising glimpse of
Bare flesh, nipple, stomach, thigh
Lovers belly to belly, thrashing
Like beached fish, their gasping
Sound tracking the carnage
Each memory, a ripple
Like silver in the current
Strips of torn foil cascading
From the magpies nest, blown apart
Chicks and all. Silver foil
Crumpled like the reverberating air
Published in New Writing from the North. Midnag 1988
Mrs Thatcher’s Fair Isle Knitting Pattern
Knit me a coat
With barbed wire and wool
A coat that will survive
And protect me
A barbed wire wool coat
That won’t rust in the rain
A coat that won’t stretch twist
Or strain
The old ladies needles
Danced in their hands
As they knitted the coat
She desired
They used plain knit and purl
Cable stitch and stocking
Arran and Fair Isle
and Rib
As with barbed wire
And pain they cast
Stitches in time to complete
Her perfect design
Published in 7 Days (The Communist Party Weekly) January 28th 1989
Good News from Leningrad
Rumours are flooding the town
The price of lemons is dropping fast
Fresh vegetables in the store at last
The consumption of Vodka is down
The news from the west is no fun
Rape, murder, pillage
Threatens every village
The despair affects everyone
Here in Leningrad
The news gets better and better
The interior once dry is now wetter
Things that were worse are just bad
The chairman’s lady looking so grand
The heart-throb of the USSR, such style
Her furs and underneath only a smile
Sends a warming glow through the troops in Afghanistan
On T.V. this evening the newscaster was allowed a rare smile
The news was extremely satisfactory
Output is up at the tractor factory
The news just gets better all the while
This poem, also published in 7 Days, attracted a critical letter it was felt not to be PC
A feeling for danger dear Ulrike
Your getaway car
Leaves the police
Fingerprinting
The exhaust clouds
Blue haze
You went through
The library window
Hitting the ground
You slipped through it
Unconventional / As departures go
Since then
You’ve taken me hostage
Held me in the open
Prison of my fascination
I’m trapped
Like an image on film
Now I feel anxious
Watching the daily news
Captive you captured
My future / I’ve surrendered
All the possibilities
Now I see you
Bursting through
Concrete walls
Bearing the full
Weight of the law
My recurring nightmare
Getaway cars
Surrounded, flood lit
On a thousand
Anonymous forecourts
I’m constantly
Planning escapes
Making new identities
Expecting to be recognised
At borders
Published in Thursdays Poetry Magazine No 11 June 1988
Memory Songs
The critic says you’re
Too consciously writing
POEMS
Let the feelings flow
From the words
Let the emotions run
Riot like kids on the streets
Burning down houses
And looting the shops
Of your mind
Don’t worry about form
Or verse or rhyme, the
POEMS
Will come they’ll be there
Torn from your subconscious
Stream of consciousness
Like new born children
Fully formed
And when you are in touch
With your feelings
Like this, the
POEMS
Will come
True to the truth
You’ve discovered
Love songs
From memory’s
Juke box
Published in issue 25 of People to People, New writing now in the West Midlands
The Poem Must be Spoken
Each day we plan careful progress
Some days are faster
Most are less
But now flowers grow where once there were none
A signature has
Replaced anon
In our garden we plant radish beds
The leaves come first
And then the heads
Each day we attend the newly planted garden
But after rain and sun
The ground begins to harden
But still the miracle is renewed
A delicate tracery
Of roots and stalks force through
The ground is hard and must be broken
As the poem, to be heard
Must first be spoken
This poem appeared first in Thursdays and later the magazine Christian, issue14 1989
A fragment
Footsteps outside the
Window, the tread of
Feet on gravel, the
Visitors who pause
And go their way
Their unanswered knock
Echoing in the empty hall
Way of our hearts. Left alone
We measure distance
Casting the stone
Into the hearts well
And counting the moments
Until the distant echo tells
How far we are apart
How lonely passions
Separate us. This continuing
Drama of our love
Published in Landscapes of the Heart, Canon Books, Newcastle and Christian 1988
And collected in New Christian Poetry Ed Alwyn Marriage 1990
Visiting Josephine Butler’s Grave at Kirknewton Churchyard
Screech of peacock
Across a still day
On the road verge
Peacock feathers
Tasselled ribs
Collected
For a brighter memento
Celandine in the stream
Birdsong bee drone
Lichen on the gravestone
Fingers tracing
Time-blurred letters
In warm stone
Such strong passion
Drowned in grief
And transformed
Collected in New Christian Poetry Ed Alwyn Marriage 1990
In the Chapel at Dornie, Wester Ross
The place is set for a small Eucharist
In the chapel still smelling of newness
Under its roof of compressed straw
A congregation is gathered
Visitors from Glasgow and the south
To start the service, ritual prescribes
The choosing of the hymns
The preparation of the altar, adorning
Oneself in Eucharistic vestments
The lighting, of the candles, which is why
In the stillness of the cloud riven
Morning, eyes fixed on the back of my neck
I struggle to strike the damp, highland
Matches on the soft box
Before the word can be spoken or the bread broken
Collected in A Touch of Flame Ed Jenny Robertson 1989
A Poem on your Birthday
This is the day to rise to the occasion
In time, in experience, with elation
The turning of the year, your anniversary
Demands from me a special bursary
A gift that bequests its own kind of pleasure
The memory of which in days to come you will treasure
Your life has been marked with loss and pain
Your parents dying when you were least able to explain
The meaning of loss and the loneliness growing
As you raised your own children knowing
How much pleasure they would have given your
Parents who they in return would have adored
The loss of your health to a chronic illness
The increased dependency costing you more not less
The times and days through which you have passed
Living each to the full, as the days dance past
It would be good if our new life together
Could enjoy a brief spell of more settled weather
You have grown older, wiser, more mature
My aim today is to do my utmost to ensure
That the days which lie ahead are filled
So that seductive siren voices can be stilled
That constantly argue, there should be more
We’re missing out; there is now only a memory store
From today we can recommit our friendship
Drink a satisfying draft from the loving cup
Take each day as it comes as though it were a gift
Designed to take our spirits and lift
Them so that we can walk through these autumn days
Of our life with a spring in our step as we find new ways
Written for my wife Janet to celebrate her birthday in 2007
A Translation from the Portugese
Poetry is all artifice and tricks
Making new art from old licks
Poets inventing pain they are not feeling
From the work of others, unaware they must be stealing
Sometimes they read the writing
And transfer as they are reading
Emotions, stresses, heartaches and strain
You cannot fairly steal another’s pain
So round they go these written verses
Each adapting to renewed purpose
Quite leaving reader and writer out of breath
Like a stunt rider on the wall of death
Published in Lyrics of Life, United Press
Imagine this
Imagine this
A picture painted with words
A distant landscape
Figures pressing forward
A progress, crowds
Obscuring the central
Character, dust, a hazy sun
Imagine drawing
Closer, hearing
Sound carried on still air
A cry of pain, an angry shout
The sound of leather tearing flesh
A wounded animal scream
Imagine drawing nearer still
Imagine the smell
Of sweat stained bodies
Mingled scents, the smell of raw wounds
The cloying sweetness of blood
Imagine blinking
Missing the final scene
The body lifted
High, the puzzled
Onlookers uncertainty
At what is taking place,
Drifting away
Imagine, from a safe
Distance, looking
Back at the scene
Three figures on three trees
And at the foot of the middle tree
Two kneeling, a man
A woman weeping and a voice
If you sing, sing my name
let your words echo my virtue not my shame
A reflection on vocation
Radio Therapy
Your endurance
is legendary, arms
outstretched as if
to embrace this
healing ray or ray of death
whatever the hell it is
only time will tell
How you as a target
of their concern
bear your breasts
patiently in dignified
suffering
A crucified Madonna
dying a little each day
giving life
to those you love
Written whilst watching my wife Janet’s radio therapy treatment for breast cancer
Slow Lane
Its all the rage now
taking it slow
easing into the day
my former up and at ‘em
style is passé now
Now I dance
to the slow rhythm
of the weeks pulse
where entropy
pervades.
The diary I have never
kept counts back
from Friday one day
at a time
Until Monday
passes and is gone
forever.
A Refelection on Retirement
Shere Gullion
Shere Gullion is clothed
In mist and myth
Words whispered by
The whipping wind
Sure it takes the words
Right off yer mouth
Here in this brackish
Water, Fin McCool
Was bewitched
By the weeping maiden
Sure she was so pretty
She was, she was
History and mystery
Unfolds with the tears
And years of troubles
Fought and lost
On this bracken slope
Sure the giants play
A thunderous game today
The hillside is littered
With burnt out cars
Where Joe Cool practises
Handbrake turns, re-writes
The myths of troubled times
And the maiden still weeps
Sure he’s one of them all right
Keep yer fecking mouth shut, OK
The RUC secure
Behind galvanised steel
The tri-colour dances
On the uneasy wind
Found as a note written after a sponsored walk in ‘bandit’ country, South Armargh 2005
Air Raid
Black hawk hovering
On wings of mouse
A silent prescence
Punctuating the grey
Pages of the sky
Beneath the animals
Fear prickling fur
As the scurry
Sheltering under the russet
Rustling autumn leaves
Small hearts fast
Pulsing till the lark
Rises to sound
The all clear
A poem written at a writing workshop that I ran in Northumberland
From our Yachting Correspondent
(A translation from the Dutch)
Day 14 of our passage
Still the unfamiliar sea
Stretches to the anonymous
Horizon, taunting
The wind from the south
Fills the sail fitfully
With idle gusts
We drift with the currents
Like sea kelp, flotsam
Of squandered lives
We speak of tying up for the night
Against an unfamiliar
Quayside. Long to be awakened
By strange accents
And a new language
Not a translation. nor is it about yachtingAwakening
It was another of those moments
like fine wine turned to vinegar
and decanted. There was
only silence left in the glass
lying on the bedroom floor
a spillage from
its gaping mouth, like a wound
seeping into the carpet.
It was the only clue
that you had been here
the silence and a chiffon
scarf draped idly
over the end of the bed
an early morning sun
seeped through the half closed curtains
picking out the note
lying in the dust on the dresser
This was a poetry competition winner at Fircroft College, Birmingham
The Water Meadows Salisbury - 1967
days are drawn out as we move into a future of untested promise
as in a meadow scented with just cut Timothy
in these meadows a thousand years were celebrated
and in those Sweet Vernal days I celebrated meeting you
for Fisher, Constable pictures the graceful beauty of the spire
as I now picture your graceful beauty and your Lady’s Smock
An exercise based on the word ‘meadow’ for my writing workshop
Creed River
Turbulence of peat
Brown water, Salmon
Sing their spawning song
Tuned to the rivers
Symphony the chorus
Rises like psalms
Gaelic echoes, language
As old as these hills
As the spawning memory
Of these gallant
Majestic fish, lissom
Silver in the peat brown water
In truth there were more poems than fish
The Church of the Sunday Jazz
The church of the Sunday jazz
Gathers on the first Sunday
Of each month
To worship
At the altar of funk
Whether in heaven with Stephan
Or playing classics with Stan
The time signatures
With a modernist twist
Worship at the altar of funk
The church of the Sunday jazz
Gathers on the first Sunday
Bringing the cool to the borders
New York sophistication
To worship at the altar of funk
Playing the blues, paying their dues
Players keep their rhythms strict
As they divide time between sets
Honouring the heroes of jazz
At the altar of funk
I wrote this to celebrate the Sunday Jazz concerts at The Buccleuch Centre in Langholm it was published on the Mungrizedale writers web-site
I come into the presence of still water
Resting in quiet pools
As giddy waters roar past
Floating in a gentle eddy
In this quiet backwater
Where dappled trout rest under trees
camouflaged by a dappling sun
As with Larkin’s invented religion
Dedicated and named from water
I come into the presence
Of still water, to find faith
In the gentle support of the stream
I rest in the dream of peace and more
Water bears my weightless self
dappled trout nibble my toes
An exercise written for my first mungrisedale writers meeting
The Night Shift Chocolate Awards
The lights in the chocolate factory windows
Are switched off one by one
Production of dark chocolate gives way to milk
Each desperate demand for assistance
Is greeted with scorn by our competitors
The governing and the governed enjoy our chocolate bars
Cautiously feeling your way to coincidence
You shed skins revealing
The pulsating beauty of milk white flesh
After reviewing his fleet with measured tread
And one hand inside his vest
The Red Admiral defects
For new found prosperity in the west
After destroying your instructions you meet him at dawn
On a shingle shore, signaling with a shuttered lamp
As his submarine noses its way onto land
You wish you had bothered to dress
Offering his hand he whispers is it true that
There’s a glass and a half in each breast?
Knowing that a broad alliance of money and culture
Threatens the destruction of all you hold dear
You suckle the child at your breast
Like a giant his eyes open wide
His small hand paws at your blue veined skin
Settling his head he falls asleep, just then
The lights in the chocolate factory announce
Another run of dark chocolate has begun
An exercise in surrealism published in People to People Issue 9
The Natural Theology of Rivers
The story unfolds
In stages as the cloud
Lifts and gathers the snowy sagas
On the high peaks.
We drive through these torturous
Narrow roads, climbing
To the watershed
Storm driven under
Dour skies, grey curtains
Of raw weather wash
The ice white of the glaciers
Blue waters, trapping the memories
Of a thousand summer skies
Streams cascade through
Forested slopes, long plumed
Fingers reaching down, wrapping
The mountains like wires
Gathering force into icy
Depths, stirring the deep
Fathomed water, boiling
The surface white
This gathering power
Of water forces itself
Through a narrow gateway
Of hard stone, haunches
Lifted, twisted, forced,
Through the narrowing gap
Granting power to
the raging river
The animus of this natural
Force conjures from those
Along its way the image
Of another deeper life
Beyond their own imagining
Spirits of nature, dancing
Dancing, weaving, inter-weaving
Stories of threat and promise
This force demands respect
Requires sacrifice
As it passes under the seven
Stone arches of the low
Bridge washing the bones
Of the sacrificed
Satiated waters force subdued
Energy tamed, gentled by the contours
In the valley floor as the river weaves
And wanders slowly streaming through
A rich landscape to mingle fresh waters with salt.
Written in Norway in 2008
The Arithmetic of Love
The maquette sits on the dust
specked window sill
these unheeding lovers enjoy
endless tantric sex
a permanent state of nirvana
orgasm, bliss, sun kissed, ceramic skin
For forty years it has been placed
in house after house, but only for the last
twenty, have we been safe from its spell
In the beginning, rows would flare without warning
cross words, criticism, anger, pain
and later as we tenderly kissed
our bruised bodies and our egos
we might notice that a jarring
sudden movement or gentle breeze
had caused our tantric lovers to fall apart
her open loins revealed, his erection exposed, raw
Over the years we did the arithmetic
of love, two and two became four
and after one particular, painful exchange
when divorce seemed all but inevitable
we agreed that the power of the marquette
should be contained at last
It sits, as it has for twenty
years now, on dust speckled window sills
unheeding lovers in their close
embrace, bathed now in soft Cumbrian light
We look and smile and wonder
at this symbol of settled state
and trust the Blue-Tack will hold
our lovers in their contained passion
A mystery yet to be explainedSymmetries
Of life’s symmetries
There is, it seems no ending
As truth follows falsehood or day
Night these juxtapositions
Of grace, which some chose to call God
Some choose to call by other names
Whilst not denying the symmetry
As when in the deep loss of love
When grief numbs the soul
So often, it seems, the promise
Of new life can seem as the dawn
Rising on a still morning promising
So much that is new whilst remaining
In essence the very same
Death often requires patient
Waiting, as the dying prepare to leave
The shell of this life as a kernel
Sheds the husk until the final rattle
Signifies the end of life
Just as in its own way
Birth too requires waiting, less patient
Perhaps as the newly born
Finally determines that its time has come
And bursts into the present
Drawing a first hungry breath, announcing
It’s joy at this new thing
Of life’s symmetry
There is it seems no ending
As re-birth, resurrection
Follows death and its silence
This juxtaposition of grace
Some choose to call God
Or simply see coincidence
Whilst recognizing the symmetry
A poem written in response to a ‘phone call from a friend to tell me that he was to become a grandfather
The Dangers of Fire
beat the body down crushed bones into flames
the roaring fires all consuming energy sparked
to the stake he comes embraces naked flames
beat the body down crushed bones boiling blood
the rich mix calcium phosphate glowing
with his right hand embraces wood and fire
bright holograms pictures a face his beard on fire
sightless now incandescent candescent acrid stench
no beauty here just the beaten body burning
the fire gets up he neither stirs or cries
unrepentant unprotesting shriven annealed
friend of king but not of queens or rome
they beat the body down into crushed bones of ash damp earth
words remain the book remains they cannot burn the book
the psalms are recited vulgar words remain even as
they beat the body down as fire draws his life out
with indrawn fiery breath he draws back his words
they beat the body down scatter crushed bones to the wind
unsudden death comes slow lightning sparks tempestuous fire
this pain more than I can bear I am beaten into earthen ends
A meditation on the death of Thomas Cranmer
The Rain (after Hernandez)
Still fields, A feeling of rain
The cattle lying, low cloud
on the fell. The gravedigger
cuts a trench in cemetery earth
Uncovering the earlier dead,
flattening the bones
into trenched earth
beneath a weeping sky
During the night the trench
will fill with water, in the morning
it will be pumped dry, leaving
a fragrance of damp earth
The cortege approaches steady
as the falling rain, footsteps
shuffling on a damp path
splashing through puddles
The silence concentrates
as the coffin is laid to rest
The dead know peace, rain chills
the mourners huddle together
concentrate to hear the words recited
over the dead, who lie soundless in their wooden vestments
Around the graveyard the trees
lean in to the gathering darkness
as if listening to the words, their roots
curling through earth. Under the shadow
of the guardian trees
the passion of water deepens
I wote this after reading Hernandez the Spanish civil war poet in translation
Invasion
I sit up in a strange bed
Krupa playing a drum solo in my head
Wondering who you were and whether
I had ever asked your name
before we slipped between the sheets
making love into the oblivion of early morning
Too much wine, slipping like velvet
down my dry throat, more wine is always less
Too much is never enough, nodding
to our hostess, who brings another bottle
I sit up in a strange bed, look at
your sleeping form and give thanks
I’ve occupied a whole country
without benefit of either armour or tanks
A morning after the night before poem
Dragonflies over Basra
Across the water, iridescence
in bright summer air
reflects rainbow light
As pulsing wings shimmer
Above the desert town
The hollow emptiness of the day
against blue sky, shadows
shape and form, muezzins’ calls
drift across the water
A harsh pulsing of rotors
Warm air winnowing
the nights’ noisescape
the bitter bite of bullets
the dragonflies night assault
This poem was written at the time of the war in Iraq
St Seburg, August 19th
Nuremburg notes
Wagnerian voluntaries
soar across history’s broad reaches
This damp August
day we recall St Seburg
remembered for his miracles
transforming frozen waste to fire
Icicles’ sharp crackle
Diamante lights sparkle
their encased brilliance
released, teasing the eye
with shards of icicle fire
Seburg, Nuremburg
trial by fire, the world’s thirst for justice
Seburgs constant prayer
Another war themed poem written on St Seburg’s day
Squantum
Explorations in literature, hardbacks
crunch underfoot, soft backs
give gently beneath our toes
Words shattered, sentences deconstructed
paragraphs parsed, essays précised
to within a column inch of their lives
Literature junkies hang out partying
in the stacks, stumbling around in the wrong sentences
such a lack of feeling for words
The literary jungle is home to a rebel army
past participles reclassified, nouns lost
in the enjambments of time
Manifesto’s loaded with conjugated
verbs, magazines full of rhetoric, speeches
recorded as inspiration for future generations
Occasionally I like to write about the art of writing
speed dating @ 60
1959, 100 mph on a 57 Vincent
Me, thrilled to be alive, two up
on the Preston by Pass. Since then
I've loved to travel fast speed dating at 60,
watching the road disappear beneath my tyres
on the edge of control, the wind
whipping breath and words away
Accelerating past 60, poems lost
in the slipstream as the motorcycle I ride
becomes an iron horse in the gasoline age
Now I want to make a date with destiny
just me alone, on my bike
accelerating into the unknown, my epitaph
No more dating at 60, he's gone on his final ride.
Anticipation
A low sun etching
The grey sky with gold
Waking next to you
The two of us once so fetching
Now growing disgracefully old
Dreaming like the movies
Naked like film stars
Planning the future true
Here we are old lovers
Hanging round the bars
Maintaining our habits together
Getting high on our hopes
Climbing for a better view
Observing the changing weather
Bouncing off the ropes
Consciously changing direction
Keeping the pace real slow
Me relying on you
Negotiating a life extension
Reaping what we sow
Just getting older I guess
Travelling Companions
I see your reflection
In the windows of the train
Your half smiling reverie
Your half expressed disdain
My covert glance
Avoids your eyes
Admiring the view
I invent seductive lies
Of course you notice my gauche look
Whilst pretending to read your book
The train rattles south
Clattering through idle rural halts
The stops that we make unscheduled
By points or crossing faults
From time to time
You cross and uncross your legs
The electrifying kiss of sheer nylon
You can’t make omelettes without breaking eggs
Sends shock waves tingling in my spine
In the reflection I catch your smiling sign
I'm
I’m here and waiting in vain
I’m sixty and dating again
I’m uncertain about what to do next
I’m not used to dating by text
I’m loving this modern age
I’m clear that www is all the rage
I’m thinking of offering you dinner
I’m thinking we might become sinners
I’m keen to make you my lover
I’m thinking only of you and no other
I’m tired of sending my own valentines
I’m hoping for one that says will you be mine
Sonnet of the deceitful speed dater
First, the Japanese creative writer
We smile and run out of conversation
Next the Polish lady, a nail biter,
was too tense beneath her false elation
So on we moved to another table
My third was French, a young mademoiselle
She left just as soon as she was able
I watch her waiting for the all change bell
And on we move again, this common round
Then I see your face and hear your bitter words
When I ‘phoned to say I wouldn’t be round
I thought University of the Third
Age, was an excellent cover for me
Yours was the last face I thought I would see
Requiem
The surreal quality of the light
the air, the sounds of the night
echo in the square
The complex history of shadows
the interplay of earth and blood
the winter sun
the promenade fills the busy
streets with crowds
In our attics high above, pigeons bring
messages with greetings
from those we love
Skye Scape
Intermittent pulses of soft
Rain, interspersed with sun
A strong breeze blowing
Constantly from the outer Isles
The arched proscenium
Of the rainbow the colour of tweed
The seascape a constant filtering of light
Adjusting for colour and reception
Horizontal and vertical holds
Failing as sun makes way for rain
On the sea at low water, tide wrack
The water fitful, anxious to return
Dr Johnson’s Request
Each word bore the weight of meaning
Was given definition tending to plain speaking
At the end, Dr Johnson enquired of his executor
Where do you intend To bury me?
‘In the Abbey’, replied Sir John, ‘where else
Do you expect to be laid to rest?’
‘If that is to be the case the Doctor replied
Then lay a stone to protect my body’
Knowing that his physical body
Would perish whilst the body of his work
Required no such protection
The Poem will be Slow
Preparing myself in order
to be ready to fly
I think the poem will be slow
exhaled like a sigh
As we look down on the border
you reach out to the shadow on the land
tracing its movement on the window
with your soft and gentle hand
Questioning the disorder
that has come into your day
you watch the world turning below
and then turn slowly away
In the Horn of the Moon Cafe
In the Horn of the Moon Café
By the iron bridge
We took our leave over lunch
Broke bread together, spilled the wine
I remember it rained
As we turned onto 89
Travelling south
To the airport
Already the memories fade
Surely there was more
To it than photographs
In a drawer
And no matter
Where I look I cannot find
The photo I took
Of the Horn in the Moon Cafe
Sculpture
Beneath the terrain
Of the Hebrides
The earth shifts
And settles
Polished earth
Polished stone
Hills and valleys
In settled corrugation
And contour
In these hills
And sea scoured lochs
The images of mirrored stone
Concave and convex
Reflect the human
Artifice the shapes
And shadows
We pause to view
A sculpture
Its drama contained
In the poise of the stone
The tension that holds
It in place in the landscape
But the guidebook
Has no record of the artist
Or of its making
Or placing, this is a natural
Stone placed by glacial energy
Or tectonic force
To be respected
Ploughed around
And left to stand
Over times stillness
Salmon Rise
When the salmon run
time is lost
peat dark pools
appear in my eyes
When the salmon run
Sea falls below
the equinox and my heart
sings a new song
The lamps are set
for an early rise
Thermos coffee
by the waters edge
When the salmon run
rippling the waters surface
silver flashes
in the rivers song
Chocolate Words
If poetry was chocolate
I would offer you
mouth to mouth
recitation
Cody to Dieppe
From Marlow to York
There is talk
But never a crossword
In jest or otherwise I heard
From the barrier reef
To Nazca or Cuzco in Peru
I will follow you
To the ends of the earth
Your scent is become my passion
I long to become accustomed
To your presence
If only the depth can be plumbed
Join me for a journey just a short hop
As we set sail on Cody to Dieppe
The Retreat
‘………………………. you are here to kneel, where prayer has been valid. And prayer is more than an order of words, the conscious occupation of the praying mind, or the sound of the voice praying’ TS Eliot Little Gidding
The House Martins
Are building again
Their nests of mud
Thatched into the under eaves
Of the house
This constant attention
To the detail of the task
Finds echoes
In the birdsong, bee drone
Of this English summer day
Natures tapestry
Weaves its pattern, Eliot’s
Voluptuary sweetness
Erupts around us in profusions
Luxuriant green intoxicating scents
Deep rose embers
Of the fire which once
burned in the bud
And we are here for prayer
To dip into the deep
Flowing stream of prayer which
Across time has acquired its own validity
The precious sentimentality
Of the scraps of memory
Thought and unfulfilled aspiration
Are pieced together
In a patchwork design
We throw over our bed as we sleep
Embraced in warmth
Our dreams help us make sense
Of what was, what is, what is yet to be
The Drowning Man Serenaded by Bells
The drowning man
Face down in the mill race
Was drawn by the sluice
At an accelerating pace
The river powerfully roars
The mill wheels slowly grind
And as he drifts past
No one seems to mind
They couldn’t hear his gurgles
As he floats past singing
There is the comforting sound
Of church bells ringing
The Fulmar
The Fulmar feeds and flies. In the gales’ bitter teeth.
Strong winds chill the bones. This land of saints and tides.
In the Island church prayers for the dead and dying.
Memory imprinted in the genetic blueprint of a people.
Not the Saints imprint but the unsanctified.
Across hostile waters that will win in the end.
Swamp these lands and wash out the memory
Unsettle the settlements and turn the village to raw
Earth, sand dunes. Scatter the sheep. Unfold the lambs.
Listen carefully to the caterwauling wind
This thin place between heaven and earth
This place of quiet death. Of wailing birth
A Handful of Dust
In the bomb makers
Workshop on the dusty floor
Of an anonymous bungalow
In Kabul, bleach and fertilizer
Mix with the dung and the dust
The pipes were roughly sawn to size
Adding rough steel filings to the floors
Detritus, fizzing with spilt bleach
Coils of fishing wire and Flowers of Sulphur
The prize for his handiwork
A place amongst the martyrs of faith
Time well spent with the virgins waiting
In paradise, but first, the bombs had to be planted
And then silence. They wait. Cowards …..
Waiting for signs of the approaching
Patrol, the young soldiers’ naïve, intent on survival
Queen and Country, stepping cautiously forward, until
A boot catches in the fishing wire, until the wire is tripped
The bomb is triggered until the dazzling, blinding, flashing …..
And the pride of a wounded family; dust
The pride of a proud battalion; dust
The pride of a nation and its youth; dust
Dust in the warm, sultry, bright, blue, air
Of Afghanistan. Just a handful of dust. It is finished.
“Eloi, Eloi, lama sabachthani?”
In the bomb makers
Workshop on the dusty floor
Of an anonymous bungalow
In Kabul, bleach and fertilizer
Mix with the dung and the dust
The pipes were roughly sawn to size
Adding rough steel filings to the floors
Detritus, fizzing with spilt bleach
Coils of fishing wire and Flowers of Sulphur
The prize for his handiwork
A place amongst the martyrs of faith
Time well spent with the virgins waiting
In paradise, but first, the bombs had to be planted
And then silence. They wait. Cowards …..
Waiting for signs of the approaching
Patrol, the young soldiers’ naïve, intent on survival
Queen and Country, stepping cautiously forward, until
A boot catches in the fishing wire, until the wire is tripped
The bomb is triggered until the dazzling, blinding, flashing …..
And the pride of a wounded family; dust
The pride of a proud battalion; dust
The pride of a nation and its youth; dust
Dust in the warm, sultry, bright, blue, air
Of Afghanistan. Just a handful of dust. It is finished.
“Eloi, Eloi, lama sabachthani?”
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